Selasa, Juli 10, 2007

Stuck Stuck Stuck

This holiday, a thought suddenly popped up in to my mind. I shocked because I mostly think about shallow things, but then my mind said that (quoting the lyric from U2)

“ … stuck in the moment that you can’t get out of it …”

Lalalala,… At the first time, I tried so hard to ignore that thing. But, the more I ignore it, the stronger it becomes. It is a reality that I’m stuck and stuck and stuck.

I am walking on the same spot for over and over again. I can’t find any progress inside of me that I can be proud of it.

Maturity – I’m 22 and I still can’t control my emotion and anger. I’m not passion enough just like the way I act when I was 13.

English Eloquency – I can’t sense any progression after spending 6 semesters studying English literature. It seems that I only pursue the diploma certificate, not the discipline itself.

Cooking skill – I always believes that cooking needs a talent that a person has since he/she was born. No matter how hard I try, how fresh the ingredients, how precise I combine them, there will be no great delicious food I’ve ever made. It is not in my blood! That’s why I disagree about the idea that a woman has to be a great cook.

Path to the bright future – at this point I just can’t see myself in the next 10 years. It is so blurry. I used to have a dream job to be a writer, but it seems that I don’t have enough energy to continue that. Then I tried to set up another dream job. It just turns to be another empty dream that I can’t reach. I even can’t see myself as a fulltime housewife that dedicate my ages to cook, wash, raise the children, shop, and do things the housewives usually do.

Love life – well, dating the same guy for six years, somehow, creates a sense of addiction rather than explosive passion.

Well, at least I have a progress in one thing. I’m getting better in grumbling, I guess.

3 komentar:

pinkanabiz! mengatakan...

getting older is equally degradating our passion coz knock..knock...it's reality check

endah mengatakan...

tulisan mbak Anggun kan bagus2... at least ada penggemar setianya, yaitu gue..
gue pengen banget bisa nulis kek anggun, jadi jangan pupus harapan jadi penulis dong. lo kan udah beruntung banget ngambil kuliah yang berhubungan sama tulis menulis.. hu hu hu, gak kek gue, ngambil elektro dan finance, tapi pengen jadi penulis...

ayo semangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!
sekalian ajarin nulis ya...

mmmuach.. mmuach.. mmuach...

btari-yang-anggun mengatakan...

:"> hehehe dicium sama endah,... jadi malu,...